haven't met you yet

im in love with this song.

living in hall....

for those of you who dont know it yet, I am currently living in hostel, it's not exactly a dorm i think. the hostel itself is located in campus area, my current room is like 10 minutes away walking time to campus. so you can imagine how big ntu is. school complex + 16 hall of residence + staff lodging. it's huge.

as an international student here, i choose to stay in hall for some reasons:
1. i dont have a home here, and bought a home is very expensive, you must be PR or singaporean to buy those government apartment or you must buy a condo which can be up to more than 1million singapore dollar.
2. two years ago, it was the first time i stayed away from my family, living by myself. so stay in hall is a better option since it is near your friends' place, and all things are provided
3. convenient, you can go to school on foot, in less than 15 minutes. you can even go to school on holiday. and of course, no expense on transport
4. it's damn cheap. you can get a double room for 160 per month to 200/ month. when outside's rent fee is about 500.

despite all the good things there, you need points to stay in hall. how to get point? of course by joining those CCAs, and as a foreigner by default you get 9 distance points. but still, up to this 3rd year of school, i must wait for 5 or 6th round of room placement to get a room. why? because my point is not enough, need 1 more point for the first round.

at first i always thought that i MUST stay in hall until i finish my study here. If i stayed outside, it would be tiring, and more expensive. but i changed my mind just recently.

there were rumours that NTU will apply new system for HALL APPLICATION SCHEME. the point for international student won't be 9 anymore. instead it will be reduced by 1 every time you finish your year of study. why? because current hall system is not fair for singaporeans, said some of them. and this year i am a year 3, which will make me get only 7 points, if the system is applied. and though i get 7 points from my CCA, the total would only be 14, which is my point last year. and i didnt get the first round with THAT point.

beside, NTU will host the YOG, as the place for athletes to stay. so we must get out of hall after exam finish. and it does mean MOVING again. i hate moving. you must pack and unpack your stuffs. and you will bother your friends when they help you moving. and after YOG finish, and the new acad year starts? i must MOVE again. see how tiring it is?

and yah, we, international students, are too spoiled :( . in other countries, you must find accomodation by yourself, mostly.

so i plan to move out next year. not too far from ntu. though maybe i will be alittle bit antisocial, but is it worth more?

life is tough, really.

blame the technology?

sekarang itu jamannya teknologi. semua orang udah tau sih. jaman dimana ngirim message ke orang di seberang dunia cuma dalam hitungan detik. jaman semua berubah dengan cepat. jaman dimana komunikasi tidak menemui halangan berarti. broadband, wireless internet, 3g, u can name more.

semua hal di dunia ini pasti ada buruk dan baiknya. begitu juga dengan segala teknologi komunikasi itu. mendekatkan yang jauh. tapi apakah mendekatkan yang dekat juga?

sekarang, dari handphone pun nggak susah lagi buat internetan, buat ngirim pesan instan secara luar biasa cepatnya, apalagi dengan teknologi handphone yang luar biasa canggih sekarang. handphone bisa wireless internet dan gprs. bagus sih, kalo dipakai buat tujuan yang bagus. bagus kalo dengan fasilitas yang tersedia kita bisa tau berita-berita terbaru, bisa tau kabar orang nun jauh disana, bisa berkomunikasi dengan teman lama.

tapi apa jadinya kalau terlalu tersedot ke dalam dunia maya melalui hp? liat aja sekarang dimana mana orang bawa hp canggih. bb dan iphone bukan barang mewah lagi. sedikit-sedikit ngeliat hp buat ngecek apa ada email, chattingan, ato ada notification baru di facebook. is it weird? NOT ANYMORE. sambil jalan jalan sama ortu pun mungkin bisa chatting sama temen yang disana. perhatian jadi terus tertuju ke yang namanya handphone. lalu orang sekitar? biarin aja :(

itu salah satu yang nggak saya suka. kalau lagi ngobrol tiba-tiba dicuekin gara-gra seru sendiri.

teknologi bukanlah suatu masalah, asal kita tau how to use it.

be strong

life doesn't always go like you want, it can be great, and it can be bad. it depends on how you see it.

when i reflected back to high school times, i was so amazed on how i never felt the thing called stress. it seemed that my life was so smooth. ok, there were time when i felt tired, and things didn't go right, but it was manageable. my assignments were done without too many difficulties, i got good score for almost every subject (not physical education, im the worst T.T). i had good friends all around me, and i knew the friendship was sincere (ok, only frm my point of view). i was always in the top three of the class. and i did everything without pressure. i enjoyed it. i never cared whether my friend had started studying for the test or not. i studied on the day before the exams. even i have this studygroup session after school to prepare for final exam. mathematics esp. now i know i should cherish the moments more.

but still, life wont be always that easy. life became real when you had feel the pain. must stay in computer lab till 1 am, and even on saturday to do assignments. i must study days before the test. i felt the pressure. yes, peer pressure. i think singapore culture has affected me alot. fiuh. and here, everyone seems so individualistic. sometimes i got pissed off because of others. really. yeah. things wont always be easy for me. there are so many hurdles that i must overcome.

but i believe that i can overcome it. with HIM.

ps: i dont want my child to study here. at least not before uni.

mellow mood

ada beberapa orang yang mengira mereka udah tau lo luar dalem.
ada orang-orang lain yang merasa mereka dekat
ada orang yang hanya melihat dari luar tanpa tahu dalamnya
dan langsung merasa kenal
ada lagi yang menjudge, tanpa mengubah pikiran mereka kemudian
padahal semua bisa berubah
padahal semua bisa berbeda

saya nggak benci mereka, gak.
saya berterimakasih mereka ada

namun sabar saya juga di luar batasnya kok

saya phlegmatis? oh pls. saya org koleris. gak ada plegmatisnya
ada lagi yang blg saya sanguin? hahaha. read my blog and you will directly know tht im a total melancholic person.

yah they just know what's on the outside. or am i too great as an artist?
oke saya introvert.

pardon me for being almost sarcastic

fb quiz

Orang dengan golongan darah B merupakan orang yang paling praktis di antara semua golongan darah yang ada. Mereka adalah spesialis di bidang yang digelutinya. Ketika mereka memulai sebuah proyek, mereka akan menghabiskan waktu lebih banyak untuk memahami dan mencoba mengikuti semua petunjuk/arahan yang diperlukan untuk itu. Jika mengerjakan sesuatu, mereka selalu fokus kepada apa yang tengah dikerjakan. Mereka cenderung berpedoman pada tujuan dan mengejarnya sampai tuntas walau pun kelihatannya pekerjaan itu tidak mungkin dilakukan. Mereka cenderung kurang kooperatif. Mereka lebih suka mengikuti peraturan dan gagasan mereka sendiri. Orang dengan golongan darah B memberikan perhatian lebih kepada pikiran daripada perasaan mereka, dan karenanya, terkadang kelihatannya dingin dan serius.

hmmm. cukup akurat sih. hehehe. terutama soal pikiran daripada perasaan. terlihat dingin dan serius? kalo kata orang sih iyah. xD

i dont want to become older

sighhh today my coursemate asked me, 'how old are you? nineteen eh?'

but i must be honest and answered that i'm 20 already.

and today i got this thought, that when you become older, you cannot admire those young korean or japanese or even taiwanese boys in the youtube anymore, like i do nowadays. there are many new boybands, and most of them are in their 19 or 20. or even younger. and later when i grew up, let's say 25, it's just weird to adore those 19 years old newcomers.

for me, it is better to watch boys' performance rather than girl. esp the fresh boys. okay jay chou and wilber is exception. but lately i watched these boys more often. though sometimes they have strange looks.

so, can i be forever 20? haha